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Husayn, I do not really know but I could search for you.!!! every school is secular in Turkey. I dont think there are these types of schools. but there are a few high schools where you can get islamic education and learn arabic, english and koran....I will search anyway...but what do you want to study? law?

ı took many nice fotos today...yılmaz bey gave the camera...we are celebrating edgar allan poe's birthday today!!!!we are 6 people in a class so some of us baked the caked and the rest will dine:)

no exams anymore:) yahooooooooo....ı keep watching tv...how can I not waste my time? any ideas..I want to be productive..I feel very lazy....

have you seen once upon a time in mexico?

hello guys ..let s change the subject..I need a break..I need to read a lot first to really talk about islam...love ..

For the past 11 years I have been subjected to teachers of all sizes and ages....some have been men, some women, some have been turkish, some foreign, some oriental, some occidental, some have been intelligent, some have been just plain dumb. and it goes without saying that some could teach and some could not.....may be you are going to be a teacher too nermiye.who knows you wanted to be one, did not you....I am deeply convinced you would be the greatest teacher I would ever want to have...

I thank you for listening, CANIM...

hello,

ohh you did not leave me :) alone when I was away for a few days...Thanks to all..

Nermiye is my classmate, is the girl whose hair I stroke everytime she goes to bed...she calls me Mom:) sometimes....nermosh, do not bother..you are not sufferring alone, Look I have the same exams...we can survive together...they will pass one day...:) you want to be alone!!!! How...I cannot survive without people, dear...I would like some noise in the house,:)

Tony, I am feeling very very relieved....strong, amd full of beans once again...

arthur can you look at www.everton.blogspot.com ...that is tonys blog and I have written there my thoughts on Ä°slam...

We had a very nice night together last night, did not we Nermiye? some very nice people from the course(we also prepare for the national entrance exam in turkey) to visit us in school and we laughed a lot, I took many pics...during this pursuit, although, we complain about exam and stress , in a way it is thrilling, I have known some great people ....

take care

do you see the box...I cannot do it....helppppppppp!!!!! teach me Blog Tony, pleaseeeee

ohhhh, I just LOVE the cat...yours moves, true.....I dont understand this Ayse,I can do cats too! Mine Move!!!!!!!(just)............................what just?

yeah, Husayn, with pleasure, I can translate...I have just three exams this week and then the end....

do you learn Turkish?....it would be the last language I would want to learn if I were a foreigner...IT IS VERY VERY DIFFICULT...I do not mean to discourage you of coure..it shows how ambitious you are, which is good...our polish english teacher has been staying in Turkey for now 3 years and he speaks Turkish almost perfect...how ambitious people are...

Mr. Hellifax has been living in Turkey for 13 years...and he does not speak English at all...he loves to speak Turkish and when we speak Eng...He is not confortable and switches to Turkish....:) funny guys..!!!!

Mr. Hell is still in Poland...coming soon..(tomorrow:))

I cannot go to see sibel&simon...oh, I do not have a bit of luck...trains are not working.....:) This is Turkey... ....

what else? it comes and goes Tony..last night, I was about to break down again...when will this end? any ideas..? it seems to me that it will NEVER end...but there is no going back on this..I am pretty sstubborn...

so Have you listened to the apples..?:)

I will buy some contact lenses..:) I wont need glasses any more...:)but when ? keine achnung!!!

Caliphate? whats this? Husayn, some christians are much better than some Muslims...it is to do with their humanity...I believe in the unity of religions..they are the same...actually THEY WERE...At the very beginning...everytime one got rotten, God(Allah) kept sending the same ....so actually christianity and islam are the same religions..it depends how people take them....if the christianity kept its origional shape and values, I would be a christian because there would not be anything like islam..there would be no need for it..they were the same..now ı believe that islam still keeps its origional form(because we have the origional quran) that is why I am a strong Muslim...

how does this blog template work...I cannot understand..no info still ...

kind regards

Do you have to write in English, Arthur...why not your native language..is your university an international one? Husayn, how do you know so many thinks about Islam....you know more than I do..:!!!!!!!
yes, I was also obsessed..with sth else.....America:)hahahaha....yeah, it was adream...you know what your dream becoming real is not a very good thing...you feel sorry that your dream is finished...I thought I would be over the clouds when I was accepted....for a few days I was really happy...but it did not last long...

I have spent my 4 years dreaming...and it was nice although, at times I was dissappointed....

what your dreams..?

tony, I asked about the woman(not michelle) ...the stretch foto, remember? I asked what her name was...and I cannot see the comment...does not matter..:)sth trivial..

take care both of you

ok Tony, does not matter..it is not a big issue...It just gets on my nerves when people delete them on purpose...!!!!are my thoughts of no value? Since they make me feel a dumm, I get very furious...anyways no problems Unk..studying...

yeah, I do painting, sculpting..not a professional though, However, I would like to see your friends works...
hobby, a pastime...last year I was planting trees....when I feel depressed,I am usually very productive...when everything is alright , just an indolent creature.....need strees,,,I am used to it...I need chalange.......

Thank you for your email last night Tony...when I feel that smo cares,, even if he is miles away, I feel strong...I need people around me both when I am stressed or happy...I need to share..cannot be alone..extrovert character, I suppose after years of being suppressed..

I hope I do not bore you with my banal philosophy....

Art, still studying...?:P everything is finished for me....I do not have to study anymore but it bugs me when I get low grades so I am studying too...

you asked about exams Tony, they are finished for thsi week..I told you there were four exams for this week but they made them five and I had a pop exam today...alive and kicking...two for next week then, we are off to Bayram Holiday...another bayram Tony...

what will you do this bayram, Husayn...it must be difficult in a christian country to have nice bayrams as such...well, you may not even know how a nice bayram is....have you ever been to a muslim country?...Tony will come To Istanbul(hope so) so may be you can too if you can find some time to relax...
I would be more than happy to see you....

Tony, I hope you already booked a seat....dying to meet you:P

Yes, Tony,,,I need a break....after this terrible studying year and also see some other people and listen to their worries..it is a good way to forget yours...it will be a pleasant one...they have a five year old daughter...I love the cutie very much...although her father is an eng...she speaks turkish byootifully but not eng..she understands...I admire that...little kids speaking....

I have a photo of them on fotolog:.. 'can you draw the picture of happiness?' remember...

Fatma is still very ill...

arthur...

you are a nerd...come on boy...I was once...may be still but go on anget a life....it is not worth it...

I will be a blonde girl soon...I am getting even crazier day by day...:)

Olga is also very ill...I hear......She is a friend from ukraine...not a cyber friend though,,,:)
may be we will share the same boarding house next year..who knows..

yesterday I spent almost the whole day painting and sculpting...I did not have any time even to read...

then I was invited to tea by my art teacher...well I consider her a friend...she has a gothic house we had coffee in the candle lid room........

nice.......people I know are very nice people.......excellent..I hope I will grow into an excellent peorson like them...

you finished college ,tony when I was BORN... 1986...sounds interesting...to know that they were people living before me and I talk to them...:)

hello there,

Inanc means Faith, Husayn but do not think that the school is a religious affiliated place..it is a coincidental..the founder of the school decided to dedicate the school to his wife who was dead..and gave school his wife's nae...Inanc...you hate going to a beach? how surprising...I would not get out of the sea if I was marooned...

so you are bored of law...you have three more years..we are going to finish uni at almost the same time:)
when did you finish your college, Tony? would you rather be a student now?

I am doing fine, guys...but I want to use computers less, so I amy not write as much, I am sorry but...exams are fine tony,,,,what would you expect from such a talented girl? ....all fine..there is nothng to worry about..I may go and stay with sibel& simon this week...it would be very nice...

fatma (my best friend the girl in my long hair foto..) is very ill..she cannot talk even...she is home now but she will come on friday and I need to take care of her....may be for that reason I wont go to stay with sibel and simon..

you take care..

you can call too tony..what time does your work finish? what do you do in your office...tell me what a social service is...

hello, abicim

I expected a different sound of voice Tony...It was me who called...he sounded different...(well, I have never heard you before but I thought your voice would a kinda different) I would talk if the calls were not that expensive...I am sorry if I disturbed...

yeah, it sounds german..yeah, my german marks are high...but I cannot talk very good...the way lessons are taught would have been better....:)

as I told you it was a wide bridge....with green plants growing on it...and under the bridge you could see a vey beautiful valley, and a big waterfall....but although the bridge was very wide I was crawling and afraid to walk....I was 10 when I dreamt...it was again after my grandfathers death and he was walking towards me but we could not somehow get together...

YOU LOST YOUR CHANCE TONY AMCA, WE HAVE A NEW FOREIGN TEACHER NOW...she is american and so sweet and friendly...she is very young ...27...her name is HANNAH...She is Mrs. chandlers daughter...you remember Mrs. cahndler..I posted her advise here...the woman who invited us to dinner...:)

they were both here at Inanc and we chatted about for two hours and they left...oh, god it is very relaxing talking to a foreigner.....they made my day....

there is another new teacher....his name is Jason..but I did not talk to him yet...he seems like a nice guy...he is also very young...there is sth very wrong with me ...I do not like young teachers very much...although most people do.......

ayway I am happy that at last the administration managed to employ a few foreigners...the school is suffering from lack of foreigners......tooo bad.....

I will have an early night too...I started to hate computers...they remind me of bad news..

bye the way brücke is bridge

hey 'Friends'

today we were discussing Traume und traume deutungen(dreams and dream interpretations) in our german lesson...interesting.. glauben sie dass, sie ihre traumen in der wirklichkeit erleben können?
I once dreamt about heaven...it was just a brücke????what s brücke in eng..?...sorry I cannot write in eng anymore I am thinking in german ...after german lessons it is normal..

the exam was terrible Tony...everyone says that....even the teacher said she made it difficult on purpose..ahhhh, these teachers...!!!! did you know Tony, and Arthur we call our young teachers abla or abi..(sister or brother) it is a turkish costum ..you cannot call sb who is older than you with his/her name..it is regarded as rude..for instance, if you were a turk, Tony, I would call you either TONY AMCA(uncle Tony)..or Tony Abi (brother Tony)......yeah,,,

did tou know mostly DOGS ın Turkey are given the name TONY or TOM....

I hope you would not be offended by this...

take care both of you....

no, she does not have to...students do...we have to get dressed like policeman.....

I have found my gşlasses...funny, on my bed....I have a mind like sieve...I studied and ready for the philosophy exam tomorrow...........

GOD TAKE MY SOUL,
I WANT TO STAY BESİDE YOU....
THIS WORLD IS UNBEARABLE...
ı WANT TO DIE , ı WANT TO DIE,


One day Tony, one of my teachers said I would never be happy in life....because MY TIE WAS LOSTand I told her that it is a useless piece of item that I have to wear...(normally I get along quite well with teachers...:) my modesty but those days I was very cross) and I contradicted her and said...I will be very happy and you will see.....I was really heartbroken but did not show it because she would be happy because of my unhappiness...SHE SEEMS TO BE VERY RIGHT....

I WILL NEVER BE HAPPY...THIS THING INSIDE TORTURES ME AND I CANNOT GET IT OUT BECAUSE IT IS A PART OF ME.....

There is a saying in Tukıshhh

may god never give such trouble even to my enemy......you got it


How are you arthur...you are always onlıne but do not talk much.....are you busy? studying?
is there anything that worries you these days, Husayn?

This year did not bring me happiness....

I am giving away negative energy , right? I am really sorry..but I cannot conceal my feeelings..I have to telll.....

TAKE CARE

TONY, I THINK YOU HAVE JUST UPLOADE..CAN YOU BE ONLINE?

.....Tony, do you know when my birthday is? I know yours...:)I NEED TO STUDY BUT ı HAVE BECOME A COMPUTER EDDİCT..ı NEED A TEACHER TO TELL ME GO AND STUDY..

OH SORRY! I just reread your post Art! Did you know? ITS NOT your birthday?!
Sorry. I miss read "birthcity" for "birthday". SORRY..............( i will now go away & hide in a corner) SORRY!

happy Birthday....??????!!!!whose birthday?

welcome Husayn...

Hello Art .Greetings from wet&Wintery England!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

PS ....If you are posting pics here ,would you like me to email you BANNERMAKERPRO (its what i use on e bench It turns images into (smaller)GIFs..easier to download onto web......JPEGS can sometimes be huge.......clog up the blog etc...Let me know & i will send it to your email address (it takes a little while to download but its worth it )
x

OOOOOOOHHHH, TONY
How encouraging...!!!!:) my blog is better than yours?....your modesty is your biggest VIRTUE...yesterday, I tried to buy a new diary...but could not find the right one.....
three films,
well, the sky is falling,
american wedding(this is the second time I watch it)
ten things I hate about you...

we keep watching the old films..nothing new......
As I told ya I am not a good film watcher...I do not normally watchTV..Maybe documentaries!!!!,things that are funny, witty...like Seinfeld, Ally Mc. Beal...but not regularly..if I have time to waste..!!!!1

come on Tony, you dont look 51...and you are not like a person who is 51 either...you can perfectly understand me...far better than anybody else...(my best friends, my parents, Mr. Helliwell(well, he is also very good at counselling)) my old unk...:)

do you like jonny depp...Melike (a friend in need) loves him to death...I am not a fan of any celebrity...

tell me about your dreams!!!

once when I was a beginner in Eng , my first english dream was with subtitles...he was talking to me and just like in a film, there were subtitles in turkish...funny...our imagination can play tricks on us..

LOTS OF LOVE#8A2BE2

hello Tony,

happy new year!!!!! How old are you gonna be this new year? :) I will upload some pics from last night at the party...soooon.I am feeling quite well,
last night I had a very unusual dream...it was too long but I remember the whole..(I have a very good memory) I was the assistant of a dentist and I was to open the hospital at 7:30 in the morning and when I went there with the keys in my hand I saw a commander ( our national security teacher, he is in the army and normally is a very strict but a cute guy)in his unifoms mopping the floor...he was a little bit of worried and coward..he saluted me and I opened the door .....and there were lots of men in the room....all dressed up...(mafia) I understood that it was a hold-up and just pretended not to understand because I knew that they they would not keep me alive so I told them that I would just take my application and leave....I took the papers and left the building immediately..was running like hell(normally I cannot run in my dreams but this time was different) I met Senay(one of my school mates)and told her the story ...we together ran to Inanc but I could not fone the dentist ...and was very afraid that he would be killed...than someone told me that I would leave Turkey for the Usa in a week..I was in tears and did not want to go..so I decided to study in Turkey not in the usa...(I must have been crazy)...then I dreamt about him..at the airport leaving and I was watching him.....he was unaware of my existence and ignored me but I saw him leaving the country.. and woke up at 6 and although I forced myself to go back to sleep I just could not fall asleep again.

I have watched three films today and very lathergic ...it kept my brain asleep..normally I do not like movies and prefer to go outside and talk to as many people as I meet...it was fun.....

I have 4 exams this week..I plan to cram....

happy 2004..take care...